"if i'm not in love" - The Song
"if I'm not in love" Song
History of the Song
"In 1992, I wrote this song about my therapist, of all people. I struggled for years with a manic, bi-polar disorder and spent several years in therapy. As most people do, I fell in love with "the therapist". My feelings however were in many ways a replication of a previous romantic relationship I had in 1982, when I fell in love with a married man.
Torn by my Christian beliefs and the true love I felt, I questioned what could be true about God if love can exist outside of His will. From this dilemma, I wrote the lyrics, "...if I'm not in love with you, what is this I'm going through tonight? And if this heart is lying then, what should I believe in..."
Once the song was written, I demoed it with basically just a piano and my vocal. There was so much emotion for me at the time I recorded it that despite my vocal imperfections, it ended up being chosen as one of the songs on the INDECENT PROPOSAL MOVIE SOUNDTRACK, starring Demi Moore and Robert Redford."
If I'm Not In Love has since been recorded by several artists, most popularly however, in 1999, by Faith Hill on her BREATHE album, which sold 7 million copies.
My all time favorite version was recorded and performed by Janno Gibbs and Jennilynn Mercado. I posted the video so you can check it out if interested. They nailed it !!!!"